I would love to say that I'm an independent woman.
Yes, I pay my own bills.
Yes, I live away from family.
Yes, I decide what health insurance I want every year.
But lately, I've been feeling dependent. As much as I try not to admit it, I still rely on my others' judgement for crucial decisions. I've come to now think that every large decision I want to make has to pass through them as the final filter.
Sometimes I forget how to navigate through the fog by myself, using my own compass. I bring in the special forces to help me get to shore. I'm thankful that I even get that support, but I easily lose the capability to live for myself.
I write this as a reminder for me be more cognizant of the crutches I use sometimes, and to remember that I have my own compass that I can trust.